Weigh-in: Week 2

97.4 = 0.2kg gain.

Sigh.

Weigh-in: Week 1

Wow! I am so surprised! I lost -0.8kg (1.8lbs) this week!

Obviously trying to get back on track towards the end of this week has worked.

Yeah!

Week 1

Almost finished week one. Phew, it has been hard. Really hard. I've slipped up a lot and I've eaten more than I should have. On Friday and today I've avoided eating too much junk and it was tough.

I also didn't do all those things I promised I would. I did cycle but I have yet to get those brakes fixed. They still work though. Just about. I didn't take the metro once, either.

I wanted to be positive about this weight-loss and so far, I haven't been very positive. I know I also need to be completely honest with myself and admit when I've gone wrong.

Tomorrow is weigh-in day and I really don't think I'll have lost any weight. I'm a little worried I may have gained weight. Next week will be better.

Why do I stuff my face?

I want to lose weight. There are so many reasons I want to be a healthy weight. My current weight makes me unhappy. Why do I still do things to fuck up my weight loss efforts? The funny thing is I can't even say I particularly love chocolate or candy. Ice-cream is a weakness but I rarely eat it. Yesterday I ate way too much. I knew what I was doing. I knew I didn't need the food and yet I continued to eat and eat. And eat.

The whole point of blogging was to be completely honest with myself. Yesterday I ate....

• 6 rice cakes (with dark chocolate on top)
• About 16 candies.
• 5 cereal bars.
• Some toffee and one chocolate.
• Some ice-cream at my mother-in-law's house.

That is obscene. That is way too much. Why did I do that? I have no idea. I know it's up to me to quit over-eating like that.

Today I resolved to eat well and I did. Today has been a positive day. Tomorrow will also be a good day.

Today is the day

When I think about losing weight, it feels like there's just so much I need to change that it feels impossible. I know I need to focus on making small changes. I've said I've been lacking motivation and lately every day I've been telling myself that tomorrow I'll start eating better and doing some exercise. Every day I've been pigging out and doing as little exercise as possible. My goal for today is to not to pig out. I need to stop doing things that are only making me gain weight.

I found this post on Jack Fit's blog and I find it very motivating:

"This is your day. You’ve got 86,400 seconds to work with and I’d like to encourage you to spend at least a few thousand of them working to make this weight-loss journey you’re on a success.

Yesterday may not have been your best day, but yesterday is dead and gone. Yesterday’s a fading memory, a train that’s long since left the station, a house that’s been boarded up and abandoned.

Today is what’s ahead of you, and it’s a day full of promise and possibility.

You can make a positive and lasting change in your life and you can start today. All it takes is attention to the smallest of details. All it takes is being mindful about what you put in your mouth, being attentive to your body’s deep yearning to move. There never seems to be a good time to start, but I say that today’s as good a day as any. Today’s your day to start making your life better."

I've been telling myself for so long that tomorrow I'll start being better.

Today is going to be a good day.

(I've even prepared this blog entry ahead of time to ensure I don't backtrack on what I've just written).

Week 1: I promise......

I promise to do some exercise every day.

I promise I will walk instead of taking the metro.

I promise I will go for a brisk walk on Wednesday and Friday - even if there's still lots of snow.

I promise to take my bike, which has been neglected since the heavy snow started to fall mid-December, to get repaired.

I promise to ride my bike at least once this week.

Stats

When I started trying to lose weight I was 103.4kg. I was doing well and was down to 95kg. Then the holidays approached and I got lazy. Very lazy. When I weighed myself earlier this week I was up to 98.0kg. Honestly, I'm probably even heavier than that today. I have stuffed my face all week.

According to the height-weight chart I should weigh no more than 69.4kg. Right now my goal weight is 60-something kilos. I just want to get into that healthy weight category.

I've been pondering about starting a blog to help me with my weight loss for quite some time. I have lost all motivation and I need to find it again. I hope this helps.